She Said Yes — Misty Bernall
Rachel’s Tears — Beth Nimmo, Darrell Scott and Scott Rubey
Walking in Daniel’s Shoes — Tom Mauser
A Columbine Survivor’s Story - Marjorie Lindholm and Peggy Lindholm
I Asked, God Answered — Mark Taylor
Dave Sanders — Marilyn Saltzman and Linda Lou Sanders
I’ve read all of these memoirs, and while I feel awful about the families and lives shattered by Columbine, they also (indirectly) demonstrate with sledgehammer force exactly why Eric, Dylan, Brooks Brown, Richard Castaldo, Matt Stone, Trey Parker and others like them who grew up in the Columbine/Littleton area hated it so much. These books paint a picture of a very “nice,” extremely homogeneous, very conventional, rather religious, mostly upper-middle-class (or “bourgeois”) American suburb that, while comfortable and appealing and safe to those who fit in, proved a stifling, suffocating prison to those who did not find it so congenial.
(I’ve lived in a fairly similar environment, but I must say that Columbine/Littleton as described seemed quite a bit more conformist, homogeneous and “sports crazy,” and I can only imagine what that must have been like for the un-athletic outcasts who didn’t fit in…)
While cheerleaders (like Marjorie Lindholm was) or athletes (such as those who Dave Sanders coached) or the devoutly religious (such as Rachel, Cassie and Mark) more or less thrived in this environment, those with nonconformist, unconventional, artistic, or “unusual” personalities did not. They all left as soon as they could (well, Eric and Dylan “left” in a rather extreme fashion), with Brooks, Richard, Matt and Trey (the South Park guys) all ending up in California, in a place more congenial with their temperaments, shall we say!
I suppose there’s a reason why school shootings tend to take place in small towns or suburbs…